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Fall & Fringe | Forever 21

Friday, September 25, 2015
Happy Friday Finds!! If you know me I LOVE Forever 21 (Zara, H&M) because the only thing I wanna spend a ton of money on is shoes and bags!! A few token high end pieces is really all you need to jazz up an outfit anyway. That being said it's been awhile since I've shopped F21 and I couldn't help but snag one or mayyyyybe a few of these items. I can't wait for Winter!! Here are some of my faves:

First Row (Left to Right):
Grey Ribbed Off the Shoulder Top \\ Grey Heathered Duster Coat \\ Slit-Neck Textured Dress \\ Notched Strapless Romper

Second Row (Left to Right):
Linear Bar Cuff \\ V-Back Sweater Dress \\ Cream Dolman-Sleeved Dress \\ Deep V-Cut Dress

Third Row (Left to Right):
Tassel-Front Sweater \\ Mixed Knit Cardigan \\ Faux Fur Parka \\ Faux Crystal Midi Ring Set

The cream sweater dress and tasseled sweater are a couple HAVE TO HAVE's I can't wait to wear! If any of you are brave enough to wear the deep v-cut dress for me it would be greatly appreciated...these milk jugs would fall out right now!! So classy sexy though! Let the winter countdown begin...

Postpartum Update || Four Weeks ||

Saturday, September 19, 2015
Happy Saturday Ladies! I wanted to share some photos and experiences about the first 4 weeks and how they directly affected me. I'm going to try to be as real as possible and these pictures are meant to show that we are all human and although we all recover differently, we have the same feelings and concerns.

 It's unbelievable what we can do, I grew and then had a baby...simple as that. That being said, here's the proof ;)

Three Days Postpartum
I wish I could've taken a picture from the first or second day because it went down a lot between days 1 to 3 but I was just a little preoccupied ;) Day 3 and my belly button is still out and my tummy seriously feels like mashed potatoes in a sack lol but I didn't expect anything less!

Seven Days Postpartum
I am now 4lbs from my pre baby weight (I had gained 16lbs total) and couldn't feel luckier. Belly button still out but starting to descend, starting to feel my abs coming back together again but still pretty mushy. Bottom line, ive lost A LOT of muscle...can't wait to get back to yoga :(

Four Weeks Postpartum
About 3lbs from pre-baby weight and starting to feel my energy coming back. Belly button is almost back in but I'm thinking this is it's new station lol

Postpartum Good & Bad:

- Bad: My biggest pain right now is my lower back. Since I had to have two epidurals I think something happened because now I get numb around my sacrum if I sit for too long and it becomes painful. It's gotten a little better but I'm going to get it checked out if it's still happening in another month. I have previous back problems on L4-L5 so I have a feeling I tweaked something while pushing because I was so numb. Has this happened to anyone else??

-Good: Being able to fit into my pre-pregnancy jeans (even if they are boyfriend jeans lol ). Only set back now is that I'm beyond used to just pulling down my pants because of maternity jeans and now I actually have to unbutton before pulling them down...big bummer! I liked my pull-ups ;)

-Bad: Anyone else's wrist's falling apart?? Between my back and my wrists I'm really feeling my age right now!! My left wrist down my pinky is having a very hard time and is starting to click. Yes I'm complaining about pinky pain. Hey even the smallest things can cause the most pain!

-Good: Being able to stretch and twist my back again!! Almost as good as being able to sleep on my back again, so's the little things.

-Bad & Good: My emotions are still super unpredictable, I just sobbed over a father/daughter commercial. Thankfully my entire pregnancy till now I haven't really flown off the rails (ok, maybe a couple times...because he didn't understand I needed to eat NOWWW!) haha. Rod says he's surprised and that I've been awesome...I tell him that I have to be otherwise he won't want to have another baby!! 

Anywho, I'm super thankful/grateful that my body seems to love pregnancy and I'm healing fast! Now if I can just get my diet in order and get back to the gym because regardless of my progress...I'm a woman and still don't really feel like one yet! Soon enough :)

The "Pey" Times || One Month

Saturday, September 12, 2015
Well it's been a month of mommy-hood and at the risk of sounding brash I have to say that this new title couldn't feel more natural. I have to admit, that when Rod was rolling me out of the hospital, I couldn't believe I had a little person to take care of and that relied on me. Was this for real?? They're not going to stop me on the way out? They are really letting me take a baby out of here? Whelp, we're in the car now...shit just got real.

Leaving Hospital! :)
Before we left the hospital, Peyton was almost to the high risk of jaundice mark at a 10.1. I was told to get tested again in 3 days to see if it's gone up or down. Now Jaundice is completely normal, rod and I both had it, but everything scares you as a new mother. By day 3 she was very yellow and hadn't pooped since we left the hospital that Friday. I had to prepare myself for another blood test from her this point she will have been pricked 4 times. Seeing her cry as badly as she did each time really does a number on a new moms emotions. There's nothing to prepare you for how intensely you care and hurt for them.

My little yellow baby, 4 days old
We were told she was now at high risk with a 19.6 and would have to stay at least 1 night in the hospital starting immediatly. Thankfully we were able to get into Choc because I didn't want to leave her side and they provided a pull out bed and chair. Watching her under the blue lights felt like someone was squeezing my heart, making it hard to breathe. I felt like I had failed as her mommy already and couldn't save her from this confined space as she wiggled around. She latched on at birth and was pooping fine, which normally gets rid of the bilirubin, so I couldn't help but blame myself for maybe not producing enough milk to get the bilirubin out of her system. Failure and exhaustion filled my thoughts and tears but luckily Rod and my mom were both there to reassure and comfort me. Fortunately I was able to take her home the next day and was at peace knowing she was good and I wouldn't have to endure another shot/shots until she is 2 months!

First sponge bath, Day 3
The first week overall was filled with second guesses...second guessing myself on everything. Is she too hot? too cold? is she getting enough food? is she farting too much?? lol All questions I asked myself daily and would alleviate my worries by constantly taking her temperature because that's what they did in the hospital. A good rule of thumb they say is that if your comfortable then newborns need 1 more layer. I still take her temp sometimes but for the most part I didn't stress as much about it after the two weeks. As far as making sure they get enough milk, the only thing you can do is make sure they are peeing and pooping regularly. Boobie milk only takes 1 hour to 1 1/2 to digest so keep that in mind after you feed them. I will get more into my breastfeeding on another post :)

Her sleeping patterns in the beginning were heaven sent, she was sleeping most of the day and waking up every 2-3 hours at night. Her awake time pretty much consists of just staring at things and lots of tummy time on Rod or I's chest. However, at 3 weeks she started to wake up every hour and feed like 90% of the day! This is because at 3 weeks and 6 weeks they have a growth spurt and can't help but be a little more needy and fussy.

Cuddling in my pregnancy pillow aka "Monty", 3 weeks
Pillow by Bump Nest
The second week was about recovery and learning to juggle everything at the same time. I think that when you become a new mom you should be able to grow a third arm to help out, just sayin. When it comes to recovery, I really hit the ground running and forgot that no matter how I felt, I really needed to force myself to rest ESPECIALLY if you have a c-section or episiotomy (like me). To get very TMI, I bled a lot (still am a little) sand really had problems sitting down and getting up without a lot of pain (I even got a donut to sit on), soooo rest! Needless to say I used all of the Tucks, Dermoplast and ice packs that I had prepared! You also realize very fast how easily you get tired if you do go out and try to be normal. Yes I know I was only two weeks post partum but like I said, I hit the ground running!

By the time the third week came around, I was used to her crying cues and how long I could wait until her "warning" cries became real cries. Although I was starting to feel very trapped because we learned from the beginning that she hated her carseat, and even the stroller, so I avoided doing anything! At 3 1/2 weeks I decided I would try to sneak out for an hour and leave Rod with a bottle I pumped and let him babysit. I thought she would be fine since I got her milkshwasted and left her passed out! Unfortunately it didn't take long for Rod to text me a sad face saying "Daddy can't make her happy" lol. Poor guy, I felt bad because I was actually ok with leaving for a little bit. I figured I would be a mess and after tossing aside the "i must be a bad mom" feelings, I enjoyed the little time I had and knew it was very important :)


>Sucking on her hand ( just started trying to put it in her mouth)
>Sleeping on your chest
>Sleeping on her right side (which is strange seeing as she only liked me sleeping on my right side when I was pregnant)
>Lifting her head up
>Farting and Pooping lol (thats when I've gotten smiles)
>Dreaming (she's laughed 3 times so far)
>Sand (she was loving her feet in the sand at 15 days old)
>Having her hair brushed


>Being put down
>Being in her carseat

Good Moments:

>The moment you realize you can go in the carpool lane!! Simple pleasures!

>The first time she poo's and then pee's more after you take her poopy diaper off! I had to wake up Rod cuz it was 3 in the morning and my brain couldn't figure out how to approach the situation! Lol 

>The funniest moment so far is when I'm burping Peyton at probably 5:30am or so and she's not burping so I plead with her "come on little need to burp" then all of a sudden I hear Rod burp when he's dead asleep! Haha! I was crying I was laughing so hard! Amazing!

>You know your a mom when you start rocking yourself or swaying side to side even without your little one.

Real Talk:

>After birth the first time pooping is a scary/awkward business, definitely needed colace
>There is a lot of painful cramping after because your uterus is contracting back to size
>I dare you to try to stop your uterine flow once you've already started, can't do it if your life depended on it. But it's good for the healing process to start your kegels again!
>Sneezing and Coughing brings the fear of God try to avoid it at all costs because of the pain it causes your healing lady parts!
>Last but not least, I'm not sure if any of you are brave enough to look and see the progress of your lady parts but just don't lol I finally braved up and I wish I hadn't! Ah! Definitely not going into detail about that experience. Haha!

Overall all my first month was exhausting (and I know it's not stopping anytime soon) but I learned a lot about Rod and I. I probably had 2 mini breakdowns and 1 good one but I'm so thankful I had Rod there to be understanding of that and tell me I'm doing an amazing job! If anyone has advice for this next month please share! I'm hoping to post soon on my breastfeeding journey as well as my postpartum body woes but right now she's stuck like glue and posts are taking me a week! We're excited for the beach tomorrow though! Happy Saturday!

Little Moments | August

Thursday, September 3, 2015
Happy Thursday...a day closer to Labor Day weekend! Little miss Pey is now 3 weeks old and life couldn't be getting any faster. Funny how that works when the days seem longer but the weeks shorter!

Wanted to share some shots from August and the best month of my life even though I'm sure they just keep getting better :)

Attending a Wedding on my due date!! August 9th 
The most beautiful flowers my bestie brought to the hospital for me :)
Love these milk comas
Nothing better...can't wait to strap an ergo on him! ;)
Obsessed with blinds...8 days old
Our current cravings after pregnancy...root beer floats!! Someone help us!

Nursery chillin'

First Ergo carrier experience
Day 1, Ricky is so interested but Lucy could care less!
Walks are everything these days and not just cause thats all I can do right now!
Little Messengers makes this amazing blanket with baby soft material inside! They started the company to help pay for the adoption costs of their special needs daughter and continue to find ways to give back! Check them out on Etsy HERE.
This month has been full of firsts and many surprises. Hopefully things will calm down a little and i'll be able to finish my posts I have in the rafters!

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